Icearina

Everyday my friend shows me what love is. She has dated the same boy for years now. He made it through high school He is deployed. she is stuck in high school And they are still madly in love. She is overjoyed every time they talk. She constantly tells the world how proud she is of her boyfriend. Other boys are nothing in her eyes. She treats them only as friends. She stays faithful to her man. Her soldier. Even though they are thousands of miles apart. They are teaching me what love is.

For one night can we just sleep can I hope we just rest no cares about tomorrow no stress about the day can we just sleep the night away For one day can we just love can I pray we just forget no drama or lies no back stabbing or fights can we just love unconditionally

I love you But at the same time I hate you. I hate you for making me love you. I shouldn't love you But I do and it hurts. I feel like you love me too. I think you do. I think you hide it well But what if you don't love me. I hope you do. I hope the feelings aren't one sided. I wish I didn't feel this way for you. I want them to go away forever But I can't stand to see them go. I want to be with you. I want to hug and kiss you whenever I want. I want to wake up with you beside me. I want you in all of my dreams for the rest of forever. I want you. But I shouldn't. I know it's wrong. I understand the consequences. I know

Moving on: It can be easy or hard It can be quick or last eternity It can be simple or complex It can be heartbreaking or healing Is it always the best for us? Does it make us better? How can we tell? How can I tell? My heart is breaking I miss him I want him but I can't have him I thought I didn't want him But it turns out I do.

       It's not wrong, is it? we're not breaking rules           or crossing boundaries There's an unspoken line           we'll never cross between friendship           and romance between trust           and betrayal Its so wrong           but so right How sweet is the taste of betrayal?          how delicious is fulfilling it? I crave your affection          I crave your kisses How addictive they must be          will I ever know how addicting? or must i be content          with our playful flirting it's never enough          it never will be until these fantasies cease          the desire never will is it